▼ Ironically ▲

“When you love someone, you just do. There are no maybes, no buts, and no whys.”

Saturday, August 30 || 14:39

for a new start,

it's rly tat difficult..

sometimes..

i duno even noe wat i did was

correct or wrong ,

i didnt tink 1st maybe...

by saying or doing someting

will hurt tat person..

without u knowing aso?

well...

i duno bahx..

i juz tinki always uses

duno duno as

an excuse bahx...

but for a excuse u might says

it is a rather bad excuse..hahas..

okies..nw i emo-ing agn le...

oh ya..n sry elephant ...

sry...

u says u used to it le?

lol...wat u mean?

i'm sry i alyws says go bt in the end alwys nv go..

sry btw...

well...

nw i was hoping to easre evertinh frm my mind rite nw..

but easier said than done sia...

NO-CANT-DO

hahas..lols...

nw de me is still able to stand up eventually ma?

still the strong on the outside mushroom ma?

erm..nt sure le...

bt as i said i WILL be happy in

front of my frens de..

i nw everydae am trying

my best to lighten up their day le..

seeing them smile..i aso satisfied...

bt am i happy inside? .. ..

.. ..

dun tell u hahas..

i rather keeps everting inside me

tat troubles me than says out..

i rather face everting alone...

than drag mr frens dwn

wif me...

if u tink i'm selfish by

doing so...

so be it bahx..

i'm juz trying to protect the ones i loved frm being hurt..

maybe i juz being lame bahx...

i enjoy looking at all my frens smiling n

enjoying their everydae happily happily de..

for me..i dun care abt myself anyw le...

Once broken,

Never mends..

it is juz lyk a broken string, ..

after it is broken.. no matter

hw hard u try to fix it..

thr will 4ever be a knot thr...

as a scar..

how am i gng to ba able to stand up after tis?

am i gng to fall soon?

dun worry for me...

i had alr promise u to smile le!

so i'll smile de even if it is fake..

If given a chance,

i hope to rewind back to the past,

whr i didn't noe u,

so both parties wont be hurt,

lyk nw..

i was e 1 who started everting de..

no use me saying anyting nw.

[x]thr's no turning back once u taken e 1st step[x]

i only cn forgive myself, .. ..

by shifting all blames to myself, taking all i could.

actually i am so happy in front my frens

is cuz i dun wana brg my

unhappiness & sadness

onto them n acting lyk a burden to them..

tat's y...

hehex...i love expressing myself out through blog sia....

blog blog...u r my

venting com le..muhahahaha..

lols...O.o

i dun even cares abt myself le.

NO1 will noe wat i'm gng through de...

i am juz living as day by day passes by .. ..

anyw we lost to dunman sia!!

107 to 45

sickening loh!!

they rough sia bt it is aso cuz we

too long nv ply match le..

nxt thursdae we got another match :)

i so so so happy .. ..

bt...

i dun tink i cn ply much ba...

i so lan loh....

i suxx....

haix...so i trained wrongly le bahx...

haix....

am i able to let go of the past &

starts agn ma?

welll.. i duno..

nw i confused sia..

nw...

i only wan to do well in my studies n play my

best in every bb match i have only.

the rest nxt tym den says bahx...

bt y i keeps tinking nehx??

lols..i shld find sth else to do bahx...

to keeps me frm anyhw tink agn..

sometimes..i juz cnt face myself.

Forgive me ba..even though u says no1 blames me.

sometimes, forcing myself to smile in front of u is difficult.

bt somehw i tell myself i must do it..

To prove, i'm strong although inside i'm nt.

Is my heart still dead, .. ..

or are still bleeding frm all e cuts i had been given by myself?

all i said were EXCUSES EXCUSES N EXCUSES!!

cn i believe tym will prove everting?

cn i stand till tis long to wait for tis dae to cum?

by tat tym, wat or how am i le?

Sometimes, the me u c r nt me bt juz my fake smile in a hollow shell.

well, since i promised u to smile le..

i wont brk it de .. ..

nw de me is...

EMO-tional de wo le .. .. O.o

Friday, August 29 || 15:55

hiie! it has been so long since i last

up-dated my blog l loh O.o

heheex..

well....

i duno wat wif me agn le.

it is lyk wifout my hp to listen to my songs

i saddened l sia :(

sad...

lolx...

am i bringing or cuzing any pain ma?

i dun if wat i did or said was

rite or wrong bahx..

juz wana say...

TO LIVE WIF NO REGRETS BAHX..lolx

i noe ppl saying u bt it is all my flaut ba

i noe...

b i rly cn control my tears

i cant help it alws de..

pls understand ba..

bt infront of u all...

seeing u all so happy..

hw cn i bear to cry nehx..:)

stay happy ba..

n evey1 tc urself horx

hahas..

SMILE ALWAYS!! O.o

Saturday, August 9 || 15:48

u may not understands de...too chim le! hehex

2C SINGAPORE FLAG!

2A!

TING XIN AND ME!

sense of carefree..but is tat wat i rly needs?

egan trying to be very funny:)

i duno tis few days wat happened to me sia..

i was lyk very very hyper in awhile

but the nxt min i became very emo emo le

maybe it was juz my emotional problems

or i juz tis few days very the moody bahx...

i dun feel lyk talking abt it sia..

felt lyk crying though the tears in my eyes juz cant be contained

looks lyk it is gng to be

rained down anytym..

hehex den maybe ltr will got drought horx

hehex...

if you read my blog carefully ltr got

bombs go ur hrs kills you

muhahahaha...lols

juz trying to be lame since thr's nth to do

at hm now...

OH YA!

if you got see the 1st picture properly

you may not understands de

nvm if you dun anyw i duno why i will writes all those words loh..

lolx bahx..

but..

thats how i felt tat tym

now...

i duno

confused now..

terrible abt ytd too

although ytd aso nth happens wat:)

lolx...

i noe my handwriting suxx cuz i tink i crying at tat

tym bahx..

duno why

dun ask me

duno

duno:)

.. rather lame sia

do i seems strong?

juz asking only cuz i as strong as mushroom de mahx..

hehex...

but inside...

wat or how strong am i?

do i rly hav to noe the answers to everting?

do knowing them solve tings tat are meant to be solve/not to be solve?

i duno duno duno anymre

...

but life is full of regrets de

but i hope ppl tat's looking at tis posts will not hav regrets

as regrets will only makes you mre terrible bahx..

ooooo...

and 1 mre ting

HOPE...

will only worsen ur cut and

makes you harder to die only

believe me...

i noe de:)

hope is important but dun put all ur hope in sth

cuz if you does

you will only makes it mre difficult to let go

i noe it de..trust me:)[again]:)

[x]the higher you climb,

the harder you'll fall

[x]it is the truth nvm if u dun believe me

i aso wan to wish you all luck in watever you do bahx..

[x]excited abt nxt week sia

....

[x]dun tell you tell

you not fun le:)

[x]you might says it is a ting i have been waiting for so long bahx..

[x]tat moment finally came after so long:)

[x]the moment i've been waiting for

...

...all tis years! [ tis 1 is i add myself de:) ]

FINALLY!! :)

Friday, August 1 || 13:33

hahax now i using the com lap com to post tis blog de..hehex!:]
sian loh

i now den noe the dnt quite easy sia .. ..
i got 5 ticks le:]

now a lot of ppl

pass their dnt le so happy for them.

2day the 'c' boys also got match at sbc against

hougang sec sckol!

now joyce and elephant is here wif miie playing com!

hehex:]

2day i also gng nite market

wif my old pri sckol frens :D

david and kok how now sitting at the corner playing

psp n calling each other noob.

i laugh very fake sia that's wat joyce said.

actually i crying in my old self but i changed le

i rly rly duno

wat to do le

wat mre do you wan frm me?

i hav already tried to avoid you in anyw i could le now you doing tis!?!

i rly duno wat you tinking abt..

if you tink of me lyk tat.. ..

i rly had nth mre to say le

but all tis is ALL my fault not others

den why must cuz tis untill lyk 2day?

do you noe i felt rly rly very guilty to pull all those ppl

down wif me. all my fault mahx den wat else you wan frm me.

you wan you cum hurt me alone NOT OTHERS.

that's all i can possibly say bahx.

i was also the 1 to cuz you to change lyk tis de.

i am sry but after all tis..

i rly duno wat you were tinking of when you said all tat to me..

i also duno wat you were actually trying to say

once lost, could nv be found back!