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Saturday, August 30 || 14:39
for a new start,
it's rly tat difficult..
sometimes..
i duno even noe wat i did was
correct or wrong ,
i didnt tink 1st maybe...
by saying or doing someting
will hurt tat person..
without u knowing aso?
well...
i duno bahx..
i juz tinki always uses
duno duno as
an excuse bahx...
but for a excuse u might says
it is a rather bad excuse..hahas..
okies..nw i emo-ing agn le...
oh ya..n sry elephant ...
sry...
u says u used to it le?
lol...wat u mean?
i'm sry i alyws says go bt in the end alwys nv go..
sry btw...
well...
nw i was hoping to easre evertinh frm my mind rite nw..
but easier said than done sia...
NO-CANT-DO
hahas..lols...
nw de me is still able to stand up eventually ma?
still the strong on the outside mushroom ma?
erm..nt sure le...
bt as i said i WILL be happy in
front of my frens de..
i nw everydae am trying
my best to lighten up their day le..
seeing them smile..i aso satisfied...
bt am i happy inside? .. ..
.. ..
dun tell u hahas..
i rather keeps everting inside me
tat troubles me than says out..
i rather face everting alone...
than drag mr frens dwn
wif me...
if u tink i'm selfish by
doing so...
so be it bahx..
i'm juz trying to protect the ones i loved frm being hurt..
maybe i juz being lame bahx...
i enjoy looking at all my frens smiling n
enjoying their everydae happily happily de..
for me..i dun care abt myself anyw le...
Once broken,
Never mends..
it is juz lyk a broken string, ..
after it is broken.. no matter
hw hard u try to fix it..
thr will 4ever be a knot thr...
as a scar..
how am i gng to ba able to stand up after tis?
am i gng to fall soon?
dun worry for me...
i had alr promise u to smile le!
so i'll smile de even if it is fake..
If given a chance,
i hope to rewind back to the past,
whr i didn't noe u,
so both parties wont be hurt,
lyk nw..
i was e 1 who started everting de..
no use me saying anyting nw.
[x]thr's no turning back once u taken e 1st step[x]
i only cn forgive myself, .. ..
by shifting all blames to myself, taking all i could.
actually i am so happy in front my frens
is cuz i dun wana brg my
unhappiness & sadness
onto them n acting lyk a burden to them..
tat's y...
hehex...i love expressing myself out through blog sia....
blog blog...u r my
venting com le..muhahahaha..
lols...O.o
i dun even cares abt myself le.
NO1 will noe wat i'm gng through de...
i am juz living as day by day passes by .. ..
anyw we lost to dunman sia!!
107 to 45
sickening loh!!
they rough sia bt it is aso cuz we
too long nv ply match le..
nxt thursdae we got another match :)
i so so so happy .. ..
bt...
i dun tink i cn ply much ba...
i so lan loh....
i suxx....
haix...so i trained wrongly le bahx...
haix....
am i able to let go of the past &
starts agn ma?
welll.. i duno..
nw i confused sia..
nw...
i only wan to do well in my studies n play my
best in every bb match i have only.
the rest nxt tym den says bahx...
bt y i keeps tinking nehx??
lols..i shld find sth else to do bahx...
to keeps me frm anyhw tink agn..
sometimes..i juz cnt face myself.
Forgive me ba..even though u says no1 blames me.
sometimes, forcing myself to smile in front of u is difficult.
bt somehw i tell myself i must do it..
To prove, i'm strong although inside i'm nt.
Is my heart still dead, .. ..
or are still bleeding frm all e cuts i had been given by myself?
all i said were EXCUSES EXCUSES N EXCUSES!!
cn i believe tym will prove everting?
cn i stand till tis long to wait for tis dae to cum?
by tat tym, wat or how am i le?
Sometimes, the me u c r nt me bt juz my fake smile in a hollow shell.
well, since i promised u to smile le..
i wont brk it de .. ..
nw de me is...
EMO-tional de wo le .. .. O.o
