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“When you love someone, you just do. There are no maybes, no buts, and no whys.”

Thursday, October 30 || 09:13

Ytd we had our trng in the evening.

Frm 415 to 545.

Well..

1st : it was very very tiring de lorrs..

run run run..

haix..tired lo..

wish i was at hm slpping lerrs.

but nvm worth it!

tis sun we got match against the ang mos.

idk larrs. ♥

hope will dun injured barrs try lo ..

so tis sunday i no tution hahas! (:

i so happy sia. ♥

i every sun so early tution will tired de u noe?

haix..

i tink my daddy driving me go toa payoh interchange barrs..

idk aso .. .. ♥

i so excited lorrrrs <33

i aso hope our bb got mrew matches.

friendly aso cn larrs. ♥

2nd : fun aso lorrs.

cn get ready for tis sun marrs (:

so excited!!!!

-_-'' ♥

ytd i 1 + left hrs lerrs.

go meet sk marrs.

den we went to makan makan lorrs.

den still early so went to xyz thr sit sit lorrs.

i saw yong jie & irvin thr.

we sat outside den sk show me

she make her own de class video.

nice sia.. ♥

not bad though.

den i ask her why dun wan show to her class?

she says scared her classmates will all cry sia. ♥

hahas..

quite toucing sia.

photos quite nice aso.

speaking of 2a..

i miss 2c'08 <33

i will nv forgets the days

we past them together. ♥

as a class, .. well almost together.

i'll alwys miss mama tan. ♥

i ♥ you mama tan.

today i still must go to my daddy's thr sia.

i tired lyk hell lerrs still must go thr lorrs.

bo pian aso marrs..

tc every1 ..

ytd nite penguiin came back lerrs ♥

she had fun & bought tings for me. ♥

It's hard to breathe now.

I hope some1 someday will bring me down someday. ♥

Tings are mre tat wat they

seems to be lyk.

Dun Judge Me Even Before U Noe Me. ♥

I juz loveeeees getting into rain.

The past cuts me real deep.

Of wat you said.

But thr are still moments

tat i wished to take it wif me whenever

i go. ♥

Dun question me.

Believe me.

I WOULD IF I COULD. ♥

'/ ♥ all

Tuesday, October 28 || 18:12

'/ empty

'/ stupid words for me

'/ broken heart

'/ all the same

'/ if only .. ..

'/ broken nv mends

2day actually i must go early early to

moi daddy's thr help help de.

but woke up late .. ..

Hahaaas. ♥

Den we had to take bus thr ourselves lorrs.

It was quite..no no very boring thr de lorrs.

sian lorrs i rather stay at hm & slp.

Hahaha...

i very lazzzy horrs?? ♥

cnt help it de marrs..

I lyk everyday aso tired marrs bo pian de lorrs. ♥

Actually we woke up at 730+ le.

juz tat we pretend go back slp

so my daddy didn't wanted to wake us up

marrs..den we slp on lorrs (: ♥

we slack slack awhile le den

ard 940+ den go out.

shld be 930+ derrs..

but we dun care den late late den go marrs.. ♥

we smart ritees? hahas.

ltr go early go aso all the same marrs..

still slack marss (: ♥

i was lyk so B-O-R-E-D larrs..

haix.. ♥

but nvm tmr got trng le.

den i says i cnt go my daddy's thr so come

back den go trng will very tired.

Den they aso nth to say. ♥

hahas!!

i won heeees :D

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppp! ♥♥

den at my daddy's thr got 1 mr.funny guy sia.

he said my mummy is very nice but my po po isn't.

hahas.. ♥

cuz my mummy everting aso okies okies de lorrs.

but my po po says cnt larrs..

so ex nowadays..

den bah bah bah. ♥

den my po po plucking tings frm torns.

den i tried sia.

pain de lorrs ):

almost bleed sia .. ..

den i helping halfway will

suddenly 'ouch!' 'ouch!' derrs.

the mr.funny guy den told me & my bro softly

tat my po po very thick-skinned. ♥

hahas lorrs.

cuz my po po make not pain derrs.

den i & my bro make den

will 'ouch!' here,

'ouch!' thr derrs (: ♥

tmr i plan to go meet sk they all 1st.

or else stay hm will bored until death de lehhs..

they says eat lunch 2gether,

i said okies.. ♥

but i dun plan to eat either.

hahas :D

...

i hope tmr dun rain!!!! ♥

or else no mre trng agn lerrs.

2day boys playing match at sk sec.

i hope they won barrs.

shld be cn derrs ba (:

JIAYOU! <33

add oil, add oil <33

lol .. ..

oll .. ..

llo .. ..

-_-'' ♥

penguiin i miss you much.

i hope thurs come quickly.

tmr trng you won't be able to attend.

but hav fun in hk ♥

tat's the greatest gift you cn give to me.

& study hard for the remaining 2 years.

nw tat you're not here wif me anymre le.

i will try to adapt to it .. ..

i hope i cn cope nxt year barrs..

seems hard..

but i'll try.

you too okies?

pls promise me okies?

& do tings tat you'll nv regrets.

bless you.

'/ ♥ you

no matter how strong one's are,

he/she will still cry in silence. ♥

i bless you to be forever happy,

lyk the way you are now.

may god bless you in all means. ♥

'/ happy ending?

-- Fallen Story --

-- it's simple, get over it --

-- emo juz bangs & hits you --

-- i can't keeps you far away to not hurt you --

-- a day without words --

--i'm on the edge of breaking down & thr's no1 to save me --

'/ ♥ you

Monday, October 27 || 22:24

yoyoyo..

hav fun 2day ma?

hahas.. ♥

mine okies okies la.

juz tat quite tired nia.

now is 10.27 le.

he shld be finishing his work le.

i duno why but i told hym,

maybe spend mre tym wif frens instead.

maybe it's better tis way?

... ♥

i 930+ den woke up 2day.

quite late aso.

shld be tired barrs..

ytd nite i 11+ den slp marrs..

went east coast ply ply & eat eat wif family marrs..

well..anyw..

2day we went to toa payoh 1st.

go thr eat barrs & buy my sckol shoes lorrs..

cuz my old ones got holes le marrs..

hehex(:

ply bb is lyk tis de marrs..

nxt went to orchard rd the paragon thr lorrs..

cuz my bro's sim card spoil marrs.

so need go until thr so far sia..

haix..saddened..

must wait for 30 mins + sia.

but thr alot cute cute tings aso ♥

i miss penguiin..

she thurs den come back.

i miss her so ♥

nites nites <3

Always rmb to be happy because you nv noe

who's falling in love wif ur smile ♥

Only when you're left alll alone by urself,

you'll be left wif nth.

nth.

But darkness all ard you.

I'm juz a common girl after all.

nth special ♥

Stood up but fallen again ♥

loveeeeees you ♥

Sunday, October 26 || 17:33

yoyoyo(:

2day i went to tution as normal lo.

quite boring de lo.

den ltr i gng to east coast.

ytd i got a keychain(:

but i buy new hp den i put marrs <33

penguiin went to hong kong le.

ard 10+ board le.

misses her much lo.

loveeees u <3

Friday, October 24 || 15:59

yoyoyo(;

2day no sckol le..

quite bored though.

i couldn't go out 2day though.

my mummy maybe bringing me out

to buy sckol shoes.

cuz my shoes got small hole le lo.

b-o-r-e-d sia!!

haix..

i 2day helped my gong gong cleaned the windows.

i scared heights somemre sia ♥

arrrgghhhh(;

but nvm help help ma..

but in the end is all i did alone.

while my bro slacking all the way sia.

haix..

cnt help it though.

gong gong then very scared i'll fall down

then sat dwn watch me..

watch ar watch ar

he fell asleep le lo.

hahas(:

gong gong so cute sia(; ♥

but he old le cnt let hym climb the ladder hymself marrs.

then i helped hym since i nth to do marrs.

i still rmb when i small gal tat tym

he dots me so much de lo ♥

now he old le marrs still will sometym buys

tings or food for us.

so in return help hym marrs..

den whenever national day,

he'll cum over & helped us hanged the flag.

den i'll stand below holding the flag for hym.

how i wish i could nv grow up(; ♥♥

hahas .. .. den got sweets or anyting

he will buy for me or my bro to eat.

when mummy dun let me eat then

he'll neak in sweets for me de.

i loveeees hym <33

he'll always be my cute gong gong(; ♥

Ytd was the last day of sckol though (23.10.08)

on 22.10.08 told us who gng poa or a maths or dnt or .. de

but i was called.

lucky lucky me sia(; ♥

but joyce, qy & cy was called out.

left me & vincent thr nia.

i was so scared sia.

i felt lyk crying seeing my frens 1 by 1

go out.

haix..

but ytd i know le.

i'll be gng 3a nxt year.

i should be happy happy de.

but when i knew penguiin's de.

i cried.

i dun bear to leave 2c'08

i'll miss penguiin the penguiin <3

i'll miss hym <3

i'll miss mama tan the mummy of 2c'08 <3

i'll miss cy the mango <3

i'll miss qy the 1 always happy de <3

i'll miss ting xin the 1 always thr for me <3

i'll miss david always the 1 making ppl laugh <3

i'll miss cheryl pang pang the face i missed.

i'll miss huiting the small gal who is loved.

i'll miss vincent the 1 asking me to go sckol 2gather,

making me laugh <3

i'll miss jimmy the funny guy <3

i'll miss tingxuan. the t-rex <3

i'll miss yuan xi the 1 who loves comics <3

i'll miss jiayi the 1 calling me ah zhen <3

i'll miss amanda the panda <3

i'll miss suhana the nana <3

i'll miss yichuan the band-er & my 1st fren <3

i'll miss alistair the mischevious 1 <3

i'll miss shianglin the banana <3

i'll miss henry the piggy <3>

i'll miss kok how the bob <3>

i'll miss hanafi the pearl de face <3>

i'll miss dominic the 1 always get bullied <3

i'll miss jack the bully <3

i'll miss terence the emo teddy gay <3>

Make sure you all must rmb mushroom always horrs(;

speaking until here i cry le la.

i sure will always rmb 2c'08.

after tat,

i went to pl of cuz.

it was beginning to rain le.

but nth matters to me anymre le.

i duno why i cried ytd when heard tis song.

i cried & cried ♥

i meet edmund ytd though.

pri sckol de fren.

penguiin says we looked alike sia!!

.. dots ..

-_-''

hahas(:

i felt rly rly useless ytd too.

i thought he did so cuz me.

but come to tink of it.

why should he anyw? ♥

hahahahahahahahaha

i so stupid sia.

but nvm le..since i noe nt cuz me..

den wat mre cn i say ♥

only cn blame i stupid ma.

so naive tinking is all my fault of all

wat he done.

funny when i come to tink of it though.

i juz wan to tell you dun tired urself out le.

if you cnt take it,

juz quit.

Ytd i kept blaming myself all day.

who call i so naive nerrs? ♥

hahas(:

i cried & cried.

but wat the fcuking use?

no use de!!

nth gonna helps.

nth!!!

i am tired le.

so tired.

you asked me an question.

& i answered you ♥

i rly duno wat to do le.

i aso duno wat to do than is rite/wrong.

i am rly tired now..juz lyk you.

tis song.. ♥

i hav been listening tis song alot times le.

through all the times i got through.

tis song explains how i feels nw.

tis way are we hurting each other mre?

or less?

i'm already trying my best tp punish

myself & tired myself out le ♥

ppl says why do all tis cuz tis nehx?

i said nth.

i told myself to not regret anyting

when i'm given the last chance to

at least do sth to

make you happy(;

i cnt help it but tears are coming down now.

hahas..i'm crying agn le ma?

i felt so guilty & selfish.

From the day you tore tat paper,

my ♥ had already been bleeding non-stop le.

i now am only left wif

music to occupy my ♥

whenever i cried.

& tat is tis song.

i had nv regretted anyting though ♥

Ytd nite.

i cried.

i cried rly badly.

1. cuz i cnt bear to leave my frens & penguiin.

suddenly wifout them,

i felt hollow,

empty ♥

2. touched by our 2c's class video ytd.

made by jiayi.

whole class almost cried sia ♥

3. i dun wish to talk abt it though.

i almost dehaydrated ytd sia ♥

cried, cried & cried de mushroom <3

i felt tat thr's no way out of tis dark place ♥

i can't face another day.

thr's nth i cn say tat i had done.

i tried & gave everting i got.

the cheerfulness i seek is hidden frm me nw ♥

i let you all down.

you trust in me,

believe in me & i let you down ♥

& i prayed some1 will

come & take the pain away frm my ♥.

i can't see another way ♥

Tuesday, October 21 || 16:24

-- cheer up! -- <3

-- emo emo -- <3

-- ;x -- <3

-- my ♥-- <3

-- emo as ever? -- <3

-- separated -- <3

-- love doesn't exists? -- <3

-- emo nv grin! -- <3

-- letting go? -- <3

-- who loves you? -- <3

-- cn you hear i love you? -- <3

-- love me -- <3

*yawn*

haix.

i juz woke up only.

afternoon nappy marrs..

my mother says i piggy le lo.

hahas..♥

2day i stayed at hm the whole day lo.

is B-O-R-I-N-G de lo♥

so i took nappy marss..

nth else to do in the afternoon marrs anyw(:

i very lazy rite? <3

hahas..i gto sun burn frm ytd sia.

pain pain lo.

but nvm ytd very funny sia.

david pumped me 2 times somemre!!

hahas..(:

ytd cy cried aso lo.

we 5 ppl ltr den went heartland in the evening lo.

5 as in me, joyce, cy, sk & jasmine lo.

in the afternoon ytd,

pinkie piglet actually

treat me,cy & joyce ice cream only.

hehex..but we evil larrs..

so in the end is

all 5 of us + david got treat lorrs..

all 5 of us bought ice cream while david

bought drink lorrs..

hahas..

total $9+ sia..

nw suddenly it is raining heavily..

& i'm emo.

tat's the end(:

dun ask me why.

i alwys hope to brighten up other ppl's world..

even though mine was...

sad.

but i nv fails to try my best to

lit up their smiles<3

lyk ytd i did my best to

make cy smile...

but she didn't.

at tat exact moment,

i felt useless enough le <3

it was ytd tat i knew

every1 of us had problems of

our own.

struggling how to handle them♥

i felt useless not able to help penguiin either.

equally useless as i can't help myself

& ppl around me to be happy <3

i rly am tat USELESS aren't i?

if you wan to cry,

i'll be thr♥

if you needs some1 to talk to

i'll be thr♥

juz dun do anyting to hurt urself

anymre okies marrs? -_-''

juz promise a simple promise lyk

tis & you tell me you couldn't.

pls dun hurt urself & me anymre le cn?

ppl do break promises♥

me,

you,

but the main point is

wat you learnt frm ur mistakes!<3

& not to repeat it ever.

let me remind you.

you promised me before not to ----- le.

but till now,

i still find you doing so!

why is tat so nerrs?

pls stick to ur promises

since you made them♥

but since you broke them,

you still own an explaination.

till 2day i still duno why you

did tat for?

ur doing is only making the rest of

very worried abt you.

STOP IT WILL YOU?!?

pls hang in thr.

i'm coming for you<3

regrets alwys seems

to alwys hold onto ur heart,

nv to let go♥

could i move on lyk before?

could i even forget

wat happened in the past?

i had fallen..

& i seems i can't get up.

illusions are sth tat are nv real<3

Nobody understand me truly.

sometym words are taken frm my mouth.

Heart was broken

Her smile turned to tears.

Scars were tattooed on her ever since tat day.

Tears ran down her face everyday♥

Now,

frens said she's changed.

At nite,

all she does is sit alone & cry.

black is my broken <3.

I'm gng to smile lyk nth's wrong.

Talk lyk everting's prefect.

Act lyk it's all a dream.

& pretend it's not hurting me♥

i didn't say it was ur fault.

i said i was gng to blame you(:

hearing those words,

make me weaker.

day by day past,

& soon i'll not be so strong anymre♥

A day passed.

A light faded.

I'm juz a nth trying to find myself

in tis place of confusion, struggling.

Tears of mine dropped sliently,

not for you,

not for any1.

Love me as is tis was the

last moment we had together♥

-- MrOwR -- <33

-- roar? --

loveeees you♥