She ♥ hym, .. even mre than me. -- having thought of tis i cried, .. cried badly. -- ♥
Almost all her attention,
was on hym.
Am i juz lyk a human? -- No1 will ever understands de ;x --
♥ Now i finally noe how yooe tinks,
& feels lerrs.
Do you understand wat i meant already?
Having i already been hurting you too
much le? -- HVNT I?!? --
I duno how much longer i & you could stand.
I juz noe i'm feeling lyk,
.. I'm gng to collapse anytym le. ♥
I noe you're always giving in to me.
Bearing me.
But, .. cn you stop it?!?
Tis way, .. i'll feel even mre guilty.
♥ No1 understands wat i gng through now.
I felt lyk i couldn't take it anymre.
.. & i noe you're feeling the same way too.
♥ ........ Or even worse than me.
But why you could take it,
& i can't?!?
It's cuz, ..
I'M WEAK!! x/3 );
I'M USELESS!!
I noe i'm juz as useless anyw ..
i could been thrown away. ♥
I always tell myself,
♥ .. let's juz look forward & keep walking.
But tis small little ting i aso can't do it.
Once some1 told me,
tat i must be strong.. lyk a bull. ♥
I told her,
1st: i not as fat as a bull. ♥
2nd: i not so big-sized. ♥
3rd: i dun eat grass grass. ♥
But ..
4th: i loveeeees red. <33
Nxt, .. i told her, ' I'll be a strong mushroom who loveees red! '
Then, she laughed.
♥ At 1st, i was glad she laughed, which means she's happy.
But now, ..
Everting changes. x/3
' I'm not strong in the 1st place. ' ♥
I aso once promised myself tat no matter wat.
♥ ' Dun Look Back, Not To Hide & Not To Be Afraid Of The Ending. '
But i can't do it.
I Still Looked Back. ♥
I Still Hides From Reality & Runs Away & Crys. ♥
I Still Am Afraid Of The Ending,
.. Till Now. ♥
How i wished I Could Break Free Frm Everting Now.
I guess forever isn't as long as it used to be ............................... is it? ♥
I'm sry i couldn't give you wat you wans & needs.
But instead,
.. hurting you lyk tis.
♥ My Smile Was Already Taken Away.
But i'm still standing,
juz lyk every1 else & you.
Now am i lost? ♥
Lost in my own thoughts?
I'm rly rly confused now.
I dun dare to cry infront of my frens );
When they are with me,
& talking abt us,
♥ i was juz holding back my tears.
Trying hard not to let my tears out. ♥
... Tis's not rubbish! ..
I'm not talking the rubbish!
It's the truth!! ♥
Dun believe it's okies.
But as long as i noe it's the truth can le.
Tat's enough for me lerrs. ♥
& i dun expect anyting great or anyting frm you anymre lerrs.
As long as i noe i'm believing myself.
♥ It juz broke in sweet silence.
-- I noe you tink tat all tis i talking abt is all crap. --
But how can i explain all tis?
-- Can yooe find the maze out of my heart? -- ♥
♥ Smile Boldly Even If Fall
