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“When you love someone, you just do. There are no maybes, no buts, and no whys.”

Wednesday, December 31 || 19:10

Ytd after our match against AI.

We Went for BBQ.

Yeahh...

But before tat tink we in BBQ mood.

Tat's why Shld be Why we're so slack lorrs.

But ytd i ard 11.56pm then rch home sia.

Lyk cinderalla sia....

Must rch before 12 midnight. (:

At 1st,

We had problems setting up the fire.

Den We borrow some fire starters from the other pits' de ppl.

But in the end we ate a lot sia.

I made the mashmallow soooooo nice.

Outside crispy de but inside soft soft sweet sweet de. ;x

But got 1 tym,

I put too long den starting melts lerrs.

Den i & joyce quicky ate it.

We aso played games.

So fun lorrs.

Especially the pig game.

At 1st i was losing the lorrs..

But in the end .. ..

JOYCE LOST.

Den we took the snow tingy go srayed her.

Every1 got tio the ting lorrs.

HAHAS ..

But sk ran & hid away.

Den we pretended to pack tings up.

She thought go le.

Den When came back,

We sprayed her.

Soooo fun sia.

It has been duno how long since i had such fun le.

But when i got hm not fun but scoldings le lo. ;.

But before we went back,

Of cuz got brg memories back wif us larrs. ;/

Sunday, December 28 || 21:29

i very long nv blog lerrs .. ..

& i'm sooooo sry.

hahas ... ... very lazy marrs.

My leg injured & finger too.

Pain in process lorrs..

So pain.

But tmr still gng play bb.

Nvm .. dun cares too. (:

Duno why whole person juz no strength derrs.

Talk aso weird weird derrs .. my voice.

haix ..

So confused now.

Went to compass point today.

Saw hym too.

When i was in car, ..

i juz glazed out of the window.

1st looked at ur hrs window,

Reminded of the past too.

Then juz glazed out window quietly,

But When got traffic then saw hym lerrs lo.

Went past juz lyk a wind being blown away.

Tinking why will so concidence.

Maybe juz cuz he stayed thr..

'XIUZHEN XIUZHEN DUN TINK TOO MUCH.'

HAix .. i thought wrong in the end anyw.

Didn't have any appetite to eat too.

Sick .. FEver .. Finger pain .. leg too.

.. but duno why no strength to care too much lerrs.

I noe hym too.

I'm sry.

He didn't brg his hp too.

So didn't replied.

LOOked & looked didn't saw hym.

Maybe is destined derrs.

Thursday, December 18 || 20:59

Tis mrng sk woke up soooooo early & msg me,

joyce aso sia.

So i woke up see the msg then went back to orh orh lerrs lo.

Went for trng together wif

sk, joyce, choyting.. & me.

I duno wat they talking abt lorrrs.

So confusing..

Hahas(:

Rch lerrs saw the boys trng.

Gotta a funny feeling suddenly struck me.

Ran to the toilet nxt.

Nobody saw me walking away.

.. As expected anyw..

Saw hym.

But could i do annyw?

Wat could i says anyw?

Better tis way?

coach taught us instead of

Mr.teo.

Cuz mr.teo nv come today marrs.

Weikiaw saw my blog & his.

& ask me why both aso so emo derrs.

Wat can i says anyw? :/

After trng,

we went to pl barrs.

Go thr yum yum 1st.

Den play bb.

I tried real hard to hide my emotions

.. by acting real real HIGH today.

So .. nobody rly saw through it rite?

I looked so ..

real ..

So crazy tat nth happened, rite?

Well .. can't blame a good actor lyk me.

MUHAHAHAHA? :/

Den gd & others & hym came lorrs.

I looked soooo real derrs lo(:

hehex ..

After joyce 1 on 1 to hym,

den after a while,

he go lerrs.

Duno larrs ..

Juz watching hym go,

I was tinking was i rite for doing so?

Well ..

at least yooe won't be hurt anymre.

Slowly all those feelings inside yooe will go off.

Soon i tink.

(: .............. ??

Saw hym looking at me.

Or was i juz dreaming barrs. :/

Went hm at ard 6 plus barrs.

Not sure.

Duno.

Dun care anyw.

Doesn't matters how late anyw.

Falling?

.. soon?

Well ... I am.

Actually yooe has lots lots tings to

say to me rite?

Juz tat yooe didn't noe how to start.

& others.

Let's juz says ..

Didn't have the courage to do so barrs. :/

Both of us are so close,

Yet felt sooo far apart.

Lyk today at ccab,

The distance was not far aso not close,

But it all felt sooo far away.

So far,

We couln't rch for it.

Sunday, December 14 || 16:28

I noe ppl will tinks ,

Tat i'm selfish & all tat.

& for tat,

I'm sry.

I noe tat watever i said won't matters anymre lerrs.

Saturday, December 13 || 21:15

well .. ..

All of tings had happened so far.

Some good,

Some bad barrs.

I finally bought my phone lerrs.

But, celebrated my joy lerrs .. wifout yooe?

I'm sry.

I made tat choice.

But .. yooe may i'm selfish.

But tis few days,

I got on so hard.

.. & thks joyce and eeni and sk and others

for being thr for me.

When i needed some1 to talk to.

I've buring myself to be busy,

so i won't tink so much.

& tiring myself out.

But .. i dun seems to be succeding.

Will others see it as i'm the 1 playing?

Guess so barrs.

Tat's wat happened too last tym.

Always seems to be me.

But tat's okies.

Used to it lerrs.

...

I'm the 1 to blame for everyting either.

Can't push the blames to any1 else.

Got to admit wat's wrong.

I'm sry to hurt yooe for so long.

Feeling better now?

At least,

I'll knows yooe'll leaves ur footprints here when yooe're gone.

So at least i got the perfect image of it ..

Wat's does a red rose means?

Search ur heart.

& yooe'll find the true answer yooe're seeking.

Through ur voice,

I could understand it all.

At times,

Lo❤e do not have choices.

Even if do,

Wat would yooe do nerrs?

Through ur words,

Some tings could be understood,

without saying it out.

Tym had passed.

i understand.

.. but sry i could give yooe wan yooe wans.. & needs.

But only to fail yooe.

Lo❤e is so plain now.

Why?

I knew yooe tried.

I'm sry.

Always pouring cold water at yooe.

But facing together won't solve anyting.

Yooe dun get it.

I needs to do it alone.

I'm sry.

.. So are yooe gng to easre me out of ur mind

completely now?

Juz lyk wat yooe said?

Well .. guess yooe are.

I'm .. not suprised.

It's the least yooe could do.

Yooe asked me last tym,

Wat are yooe to me?

...

Yooe are a person,

Who once gave me the taste of

sweetness,

sourness,

.. & gave me unforgettable.

But be relieved tat,

those memories will be kept

inside me, alone.

The past blown if far apart though.

Lo❤ing some1 is staying happy for tat person.

Sunday, December 7 || 22:27

2day we went to eat brakfast 1st.

Den went to jurong thr,

the onmi threate the saakura thr eat lunch lorrs.

Eat lerrs damn full sia.

After eating,

we went to omni threate 1st.

Inside was lyk damn biiiiiiiiig larrs.

Ard us is not lyk normal walls,

But lyk we are inside a ball derrs.

The walls ard us are all round forming the whole

place juz lyk we're inside a huuuge ball.

The show is ard 45 mins lo.

Thr can juz lie dwn &

slp derrs .. soooo coooool lorrs. (:

i took some pix too.

They look so real horrs?

How beautiful is tat?

WHole place of dolphins. (:

SARDINES!!

DOlphins underwater. (:

Sckol of sardines.

Nice hurrs? (;

WAves Splashing.

WAterfall!!

Waves crashing.

Beach ..

Rare Sight hurrs?

Sea shore .. (:

Nxt we went to sci centre lorrs.

I took some pix too.

So nice lorrs ..

wAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhh .. dots ..

see them .. (;

Tat's mirror reflection .. cool heey?

Telling us how ugly virus are .. :x

SAAAAAAARS!

You see properly,

is mede up of lots & lots of small shells.

Biiiiiiiigy Crab!

If yooe see properly,

The hole thr got 1 eel.

Cooool tank hurrs? (;

Showing water pressure

in needles used for injestions.

Which means the thinner,

the less pain.

.. i tink see for urself lorrs.

The middle derrs

is the thinnest needle derrs. (:

Stary fishy!

.. erm.. juz starfish .. cute hurrs?

After tat we went back to

my cousin's new condo hrs.

i played tennis thr.

DAmn fun derrs lo!

But i use the racket

is lighter derrs.

Somehow i tink is kids' derrs sia.

Hahas .. so embrassing lorrs.

Tmr i still gng out inthe afternoon.

Mrng dun feel lyk gng out leh.

Lazy sia .. ;p

Saturday, December 6 || 16:23

TAt's a huuuuuuuuge dino.. ROARRRRRS!

When the lights came .. it was dark.. whooooo

On the most right .. is me.. wearing pe.

For tis pix, the eyes will move derrs..

NANO .. cool! ;D

i-space

The lift button .. cool horrs? (:

David wif bear bear .. seems friendly enugh

sry sry very dark so cnt see properly. i'm at the most right.

Erm .. cool lights?

ROARRRRRRRRS! (;

Tmr i'm gng to eat sakura buffet

.. & gng sci centre again.

But tis tym i'm gng

wif my family & my cousins.

Hahas .. i still rmb last tym

i went to sci centre wif my frens.

For a sckol trip.

It was fun & thr is alot alot tings to

learn from thr.

They are very interesting too.

Thr aso got mac thr.

... sooo hungry lerrs can go thr.

But shld be won't derrs la.

Got buffet to eat lyk a piggy lerrs sia.

I scare scckol reopens lerrs,

i'll looks lyk a piggy sia.

But shld be won't derrs la.

I'm controlling my diet prefectly lerrs..

MUHAHAHAHA .. dots ..

.. & plus i nowadays got bb matches,

traning .. & waiting for zone lerrs.

Shld be busy until dun need eat lerrs hahas ..

Oh Yaaaaa!!

i still rmb on the day before the YT's match.

We got trng before tat.

Ard train for 1 hour plus lerrs,

den we go eat at the NUS canteen thr.

I & sk ate .. joyce drank .. elis nv eat anyting.

Then,

elis sat besides me marrs.

Then.. i fed her eat lots lots of my food.

Mr teo says derrs ma.

Got good thing must share share derrs.

.. & aso ust eat marrs.

Den she nv eat then bo bian i fed her lorrs.

Hahahas .. we shared 1 share of chicky Chop (chicken chop).

I was the last to finish as usual.

Then we went back to ccab lorrs.

Get warmed up lerrs den start lerrs lo.

Waiting by every hour.

WAiting by every min.

Waiting by every secs.

For all for wat,

It's juz for a stupid call.

I would rather not wait for

5 hour plus or mre juz for a call.

Tat's stupid .. rite?

Waiting for sth tat are never meant to happen.

Tat's only for stupid people to do.

Well at least,

i was 1 of the stupids .. LAST TYM.

Now lyk i said before tings do change,

So does love.

Love can last long only if thr are agreement

.. & not so much disagreements.

But .. for me,

nth lasts.

Nth at all.

I changed a lot.

Tat's wat ppl says.

But others changed too.. some might says.

.. & i agree.

But the reason of her changing,

Is cause me?

Am i the real cause?

Is it cause of my attitude problem tat led to ur actions.

I asked her,

She said it's cuz got lots of disagreements

& further mre we can't communicate properly then.

Tat's why he said doesn't means always aso

others' ppl fault.

It was mine too tat all those tings happened.

MY PROBLEM.

I noe lerrs.

Tat day while i was on the bus alone.

I cried.

Not because wat yooe said

were wrong & i felt lost among them.

But ..

Yes. i felt lost among all those tings said.

But tat not means yooe were wrong.

I cried.

Cuz i felt so it was my fault

to blame but not any1 else.

I caused the problem myself ..

& i didn't knew all along.

I felt desvestated.

I didn't trust yooe in the beginning.

Tinking why yooe would do all those tings.

But now,

With every tears i shed,

i knew it my fault.

I should not ask ppl why they did so,

but reflects on myself instead.

After all tis,

i hoped yooe had stopped & learnt

a valuable lesson.

Cherish the ones who cares abt yooe.

Or even loves them.

❤ 爱情的迷宫

Friday, December 5 || 16:58

For the update:

we lost to unity sec by 6 points.

ytd,

we lost to Yishun Town sec by 7 points.

But .. nxt tues we cn win anderson sec derrs.

i got lots lots confidence we

will get into finals derrs.

Juz lyk last year.

But.. is hope we will

get 1st place tis tym.

Ytd the match against YT was

soooo intense lorrs.

At the 3rd quarter,

we only lost by 1 points.

But ..

at the last quarter,

we lost by 7 points lerrs lo.

haix .. i quite dissapointed in

myself though.

I got the chance to shoot,

but didn't went in.

Cuz i was frightened then

i shot it too much over.

Quite dissappointed lorrs.

i didn't helped a lot for the team.

But i defenced okies okies larrs.

Wanna noe mre?

Then go ccab nxt tues,

to see our match against anderson lorrs.

Ard .. forget lerrs .. hahas(:

why is everyting not feeling the same anymre?

It felt all too sudden.

Too tiring.

Too messy.

Too .. different.

It's giving me pressure,

.. & losing all my strength to carry on.

.....................& i dun get how it

gets to tis state either.

I'm trying a way to save myself from it.

All i'm tinking of is ..

But i dun wan tis to happened either.

But i'm juz so selfish, aren't i?

Everyting seems so simple

& pure then.

But now,

everyting juz changed for me.

If i am given a chance to overdo everyting again,

i hope i had never appeared in ur life before.

So maybe it would sufferings for yooe,

as well as me.

I once thought i wanted freedom.

But after watever happened,

did tis word ever happened?

Did i felt freedom after

everyting were done.

Either happy or sad.

Does it makes a difference.

Tis song is singing it all out now.

Saying .. ..

Life had to go on watever happened to us.

Leaving is easy.

Loving is easy as well.

It's only how yooe sees love as.

Is thr any difference from last tym

.... & now?

WAt's is the big big difference then?

Tuesday, December 2 || 22:04

we won nan chiau 2day.

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