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“When you love someone, you just do. There are no maybes, no buts, and no whys.”

Tuesday, June 30 || 08:29

wakakas.
hello.
Now i'm at com lap.
Mdm tan talking abt th poster ting.
We is must do pie chart kind de.
hahas.
Scare ltr cnt finish it in time.
But will try best. :D
Now i playing restaurant city.
wakakas. :D

{♥ Always a babyy.}

Sunday, June 28 || 18:09

Went out wif family today.
In th mrng,
went to cut hair.
Not me.
If i go cut agn,
i'll surely freak out,
& start scolding fcuk, fcuk le. :D
Is my daddy & brother.
Then, went to buy tings,
before heading back hm to fetch my mummy.

Actually thought gng marine parade de.
But in th end,
didn't go.
Went to j8 instead.
Went to th library thr.
Surprising,
i borrowed a thick fiction book.
Wakakas.
Ate lunch then went back hm le.

Tmr mrng,
i still need rch sckol by 7am.
To meet outside th pe room.
To take our flag shirt for running.
Hope i dun take th bangaladesh de.
wakakas.

❤{Always a babyy.}

Saturday, June 27 || 12:39

I'm BIA.
MUHAHAHAHA.
But is so bored today at hm lo.
WIsh can go oout.
But got to do holiday hw le.
Th maths i left 1 hvnt complete. :D

❤{Always a babyy.}

Friday, June 26 || 13:06

I'm sooooo freaking bored at hm.
Now i'm playing game lo. :D
Hahas.
Will be gng out tonight wir dearest mommy,
cuz bro gng bbq.
So we gng out eat dinner.
&& shopping. :D

This is th 2nd post for today.
Haix.
Came back frm amk thr,
went to popular.
To buy th colour paper & colour markers for th chinese hw.
Then went to eat & go to amkhub thr.
To th fairprice.
then went hm le.
Bro 12am then coming hm.
Haix.
So looooong lo.
Ltr i watching th robot boyf show.
Seems nice though.
But 1130 pm then show.
Sooooo late.

❤{Always a babyy.}

Thursday, June 25 || 20:22

yayyyyyy.
yayyyyyy. :D
Went to watch TRANSFORMERS!
So coooool & nice.
But quite long,
abt 2hr 50 mins.
This holiday makes me so brokeeeeee.
hahas.
Now gng to bankrupt lerrs, soooon. :D
Saw mathias on th train to plaza sing.
Hahas.
So is go wif wq.
hahas.

We watched th same movie as them.
But ours earlier.
our is 140 pm.
Theirs is 2 plus.
We rch thr very very early.
dk whr to go so went to mrt thr sit sit.
lols.
So weird lorrs. :D
Then ard 120 went back to ps inside.
Bought chipps.
yumm, yumm. :DD
wooooots~
Hahas.
Some1 scared tickles woorrs.
hehes.
Went to buy drks too.
Saw adler, cherylene & simin too.
Theyy watching same movie too. :D
But theirs is 4 plus de.

After wraping th chipps,
went in th threate.
Ours is hall 3.
Our movie ended ard 420 pm.
Walked ard then went hm le.
yayyyyy. ;DD

Although i rly dk wat went wrong,
i'll try my best to change.
intially,
i thought yooe were referring to me.
But now is not.
I noe le.
Idk why tings would turn out this way either.
I dhun wish all this to happen either.

idk, juz dk why it will turn out this way.

❤{Always a babyy.}

|| 08:45

Fcuk, i'm still fed-up abt my freaking short hair.
Damn irritating larrs.
I dhun wan. DD;
Wan to cry le whenever i tink of it.
Haix. DD;
Boooo-hooo.
But aso cnt undo it.
I miss my hair.
Fcuk, fcuk, fcuk!

Ltr gng plaza sing.
Haix.
So paiseh lo.
Haix.
I dhun wan to see any1 lyk this lo. D;
But i'm still gng to watch transformers :D
Lols.
But still so fed-up wif my hair!
FCUK!

❤{Always a dumb babyy.}

Wednesday, June 24 || 17:12

Went to heartland mall thr.
cut my hair.
Damn freaking fed-up lo.
My hair now so damn fcuking short la.
So not nice.
lyk KNS lo.
Other ppl still say nice.
dots...
& my fringe so short le.
Wan to buy headband to wear le.
Hair too short.
i wan red de. :D
hahas.

{❤ dumbdumb}

|| 09:09

Forgot to post ytd nite.
opppps. ;p
hahas.
Lazyy ma.
Went to compass pt.
Wif dearest mommy.
Went to library dhen food court to eat.
Waaa, full full le.
Next went back to library to borrow some books.
I only borrowed one. ;/
hahas.
But it is a GHOST story book de.
SCARY de hor. :D

AFter tat,
went to popular.
wanted to buy 'o' level physics to do.
But didn't buy,
as i at hm still got 1 'o' level chemistry not yet done.
Ltr buy too may assignment books cnt finished.
Waste money & my time choosing them.
hahas.
So nxt tym dhen i go buy.
hehes.

{❤ dumbdumb}

Tuesday, June 23 || 13:11

Tired, Tired, Tired. D;
idk why feeling lyk this.
Haix.
So terrible.
I slept for mre than 12 hrs le.
Not so active today le.
So restless.
Played RC but not much ingredients & money.
Haix.
Maybe is just starters barrs.
Off to rest. :D

{❤ dumbdumb}

Monday, June 22 || 10:11

MUHAHAHA. :D
Today is JIAXIN'S BIRTHDAY.
Woooots~
HAPPYY BIRTHDAY TO YOOE,
HAPPYY BIRTHDAY TO YOOE,
HAPPYY BIRTHDAY TO YOOE,
HAPPYY BIRTHDAY TO YOOE. :D

* JIMMY ROX.
sAID BY HYM.

Now at com lap.
Playing restaurant city.
Thks CHin DIn invite me de. :D
Love yooe lots.
I go play le.
toodles :D

Today during dhe ict soooo funny.
Every1 talking abt trading all kinds of food.
Sk aso crazzyy de.
Gave me sooo many food, tables & chairs.
Fun day. :D

Muhahaha.
Now i'm BIA.
Now is nite tym le.
Gng play restaurant city now.
hahas.
TA-TAAAs. :D

ღ dumbdumb

Saturday, June 20 || 16:23

So bored.
hahas.
Have done many test on facebook.
Hahas.
They're cool but dk true marrs.
But i dhun put too much hope them.
hahas.
As people always say,
Dhe mre hope yooe put on sth,
dhe harde yooe'll fall.
hahas. LOLS.

Now i taking how lazy am i?
Shld be very lazyy la :D
okies,
i'm 93% lazyy.
Believe it?!

ღ dumbdumb

Friday, June 19 || 10:20

KONICHIWA :D

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooots~
hahas.
I just had an plurk & facebook account.
EVERY1 PLS ADD ME :D
i just signed up for it.
So quite noob. :D
hahas.
Is G helped me de.
Thks lots lots.
Love yooe.

Ltr idk gng out ma.
Haix.
Not confirmed.
Lols. :/
i did dhe facebook quiz on LOVE METER.
91% in love worrs.
But got SOMEONE shun believes in this ting.
hahas.
So bored at hm lo.
Bro went out early in dhe mrng le.
felt soooo tired also.
Ytd 1115pm + dhen i can fall slp.
haix.
Can't seems to fall asleep.
Actuaaly,
ytd at 1053pm ,
gd sent me a msg.
Scared me.
Cuz i forgot off silent.
hahas.

Anyw good luck for dhe boys' final match today.
At 1130am.
Wan to support them?
Go to eastview sec.
Hahas.
Advertising for them marrs.
Must JIAYOUUS for dhe champion horrs. :D

My Birthday says this abt me:

Active and dynamic. :D
Decisive and haste but tends to regret. :D
Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality.
Loves attention. :D
Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless.
Adventurous. :D
Loving and caring.
Suave and generous.
Emotional. :D
Aggressive.
Hasty.
Good memory.
Moving Motivates oneself and others.
Sickness usually of the head and chest.
Sexy in a way that only their lover can see. :D

Did a test on WHY DO YOU LOVE HIM/HER? :

He will do almost anything for you and he would love you no matter what you look or dress like. He know what you want and will try so hard to give it to you. :D

ღ dumbdumb

Thursday, June 18 || 12:41

Trapped heart

Today,
.. was a sucking freaking day.
sucks, sucks, sucks.
idk why BUT just sucks.
... do yooe tink i wan this way?
I felt terrible torturing myself too.
ARGGGHHHH.
Now this?
Forget it.
Nvm, every1 even myself just dhun get it ba.
No, no just me i guess.
Well, hope he have fun. ... (:

Err ..
today weather is very very hot.
So every1 drks mre water. :D
& .. ltr i gng out le.
Sian, finally gng out le.
Hope i everyday aso can escape frm hm.
So bored at hm ma.
Dhen go to somewhr,
maybe to somewhr whr i could fit in.

He said he did so much,
just wan me not to be lyk this.
But .. i noe.
I can't help it feeling this way either.
It's so .. terrible.
I hate it.

Nobody is worth your tears,
& dhe only one who is,
will never make yooe cry.

ღ dumbdumb

不敢再次相信自己。

Wednesday, June 17 || 16:50

Ytd went to bugis dhen plaza sing.
.. Went to bugis to walk walk lo.
We went to eat lunch at 12 noon.
OKies, i didn't eat of course. :D
He ate.
After lunch,
went take neoprints lo.
Yayyyyy :D
Took le dhen went to design it.
I look better this tym dhen dhe 1st tym de.
Hahas.
He looked funny funny de.
Got 1 part is must vote de.
Saw 2nd is sm & yl.
Woooooo~
We both voted for them. :D
Hahas.
After taking dhe neoprints,
went to cut cut cut them out lo.
Dhen went to plaza sing nxt.
Went to buy tickets for LAND OF LOST.
MUHAHAHA.
Soooooo nice & scary lo.
hahas.
Inside aso very cold,
Luckily is I call hym brg jacket de.
I've been hugging it for a long long tym.
Felt sooooo sleepy just by hugging it.
Hahas.
During dhe movie,
So exciting.
Hahas.
It's a nice & thrilling movie. :D
After watching dhe movie, abt 415,
went to walk walk ard lo.
I was thr saying crap.
But he was dhe 1 who started everyting de.
He INFLUENCED me de. :D
muhahahaha.
hehes.

After watching dhe movie,
went to walk walk somemre lo.
Heard that he gng to find his frens at pasir ris,
encouraged hym go.
He dun wan.
Says tired.
LOls.
DHen keep saying he smell got vinegar smell.
Wat dhe heck?
Lols.
NO LO, nv.
Lols took mrt back to serangoon.
dhen took 315 hm.
So tired lo.
But was very happyy. :D

Today, stayed at hm.
Was so bored.
Kept tinking wat happened?
Am i dhe 1?
Tat neglected others?
Haix.
Guess it was just me.
Haix.
Nope not anyone's fault.
It was mine.
Aiya, dhun say le la. :DD

I was looking forward for dhe concert on this coming sun.
But in dhe end,
I couldn't go. DD:
Wan to cry le.
Haix.
Parents say last min got ting,
So cnt go le lo.
Saddened rite? D:
Haix.
Nvm.
Apologised to tx le.
TX, i'm sry. i ps yooe too. Sry.
On sun,
i'm leaving singapore.
To malaysia i tink.
Yar, wif parents & cousins lo.
So .. last min lo.
Haix. but aso bo bian.
Cnt do anyting.
Go jiu go lo.
But i mon coming back le.
Wooooooots~
I mon got dhe pe rehearsal ting ,
& ss remedial!
Waaaaaaa~
can die sia.
Haix.
I must rch sckol by 715am.
So early!
Dhen ss remedial 9am starting le.
Must rush & rush. D:
Haix.
Still got lots lots hw hvnt complete de.
Maths completed 1 & 1/2 set le.
hahas.
Chinese & ss aso dk how to do lo.
SIAN!
actually i now gng amkhub de,
but decided not to go le. :/

Is every promises supposed to be broken.
Nth.
Just asking only.
For fun. :D
&& NJK!
yooe broke a promise to me ytd.
RMB? DD:
But if yooe rmb,
Yooe would have done it.
Hahas.
So yooe didn't rmb.
I BET yooe forget le.
Cause it's such a small ting.
I wan i wan i wan!!
...
Call me back?
yooe didn't.
Guess yooe still trng.
So tat's a valid reason.
okies, I'm gng to be MIA le.
byes. :D

ღ dumbdumb

对不起我无意中伤害了你。

Monday, June 15 || 11:57

*sniff* *sniff*
Still abit sick.
hahas.
i hope i get well soon.
i hvnt eat brkfast + lunch sia.
Sooooooo hungry but dhun feel lyk eating though. D:
dk why too. :D
nvm, it's okies. :DDDD

Didn't wat's wrong wif me tis few days.
Lyk everyting is wrong.
idk.
idk how to face myself.
idk wat's wrong wif everyting.
Or .. was it juz me changing?
People said i changed.
Alot?
... idk wat got into me tat make me felt changed to yooe.
I need someone now.
But no1's here.
I'm just a nobody.
Just some1 hurting people mre than they do to me.
Tat's unforgiveable.
Even to me.
I feel tat way now.
idk wat got into me too.
I dun ask for anyone's forgiveness now.
Cause to me,
it does not matters to me anymre.
It's juz a sign of actions & feelings.
It'll never mean anyting mre to me.
So .. i conclude dhe conclusion tat it does not matters.
Anyting does not matters.
To me,
i'm just a selfish, heartless & useless girl tat does not understand dhe word 'sry'.
Cause 'sry' does not mean anyting,
But just is asking for forgiveness for sth yooe've done wrong.
But if sth happened,
will saying 'sry' changes dhe fact & wat had happened?
NO.
It's doesn't.
I dhun noe why i bother torturing myself.
I'm just nth. NTH at all.
Just an ordinary girl.

Drifting further & further?
AGREE.
although idk why all this is happening.
But thr must an reason for all this to happen either.
WAT IS IT?!
idk.
Tat's dhe prob.
Without knowing it,
will it solve this?
No.
So can some1 just tell me,
WHY is all this happening.
Well , ..
maybe i noe dhe ans after all.
Simple.
All this happen cause who?
ME.
Who started all thos in dhe 1st place?
ME.
Who is dhe 1 always hurting hym?
ME.
.. SO noe dhe ans le ma?
Yar yar.
..me.
Looking back.
Now me, Old me.
A BIG difference, huh?
Yar i noe too.
Been told.
Wan to change for dhe better?
idk.
Every step i take,
it is dhe wrong one.
Trying.
Tried.
Tired.
Carry on?
Dhe higher yooe climb,
Dhe harder yooe'll fall.
Well. .. suits me though.
I shldn't expect everyting frm hym.
Shldn't have.
decided not too anymre.
I'm just a burden.
REady yet?
...idk.
I dhun seem ready.
But can i rly do it.

hurt just a bit less.
Ever agn?
Heard it.
hopeless, aren't i?
i'm sry.
choose not to listen in.
Holding tears in.
I'm at somewhr else.
Somewhr i dhun even noe.
Throw dhe rest of it away?
when i heard it,
although i'm at fault at everyting,
I cried my heart out.
I noe.
Isn't this wat i wanted rite?
.. idk.
I'm in a mess now.
Confused.
Tings were said.
I can't tink.
I've a bad heart.
... always making people feel worse.
ALWYS.
Someday,
will i wear out?
Stop for a moment?
Does it leave painful scars behind?
Telling myself lies?

Am i rly lyk tat?
Lyk wat yooe said i was?
..WHy does everyting happens to us?
Is this it?
How is this gng to be solve?
I'm just so useless.
Didn't did anyting for hym.
Guess i'm just lyk this huh.
yar, i agree too.
But let me ask,
Is it torn?
Broken?
I still rmb dhe torn paper.
Since then,
I just fear it.
Fears just arose deeper & deeper since then.
But it wasn't ur fault either.
It was mine.
I picked it up though.
But was thrown away.
I regretted it.
LOTS.
I shld given yooe metal de.
Dhen this way,
it won't be torn le.
Smart rite?
Thks :DD

ღ dumbdumb

Monday, June 8 || 21:07

*cough* *cough*
Haix.
I'm still sick.
Feeling terrible.
Went to help out at my daddy's thr.
Haix.
Tiring.
I was lyk, kept coughing & coughing.
So serious sia.
Haix.
Must drk mre water, i noe.
Haix.
Tat's wat every1 is tying to tell me.
Haix.
Still have not eaten.
Starting feel hungry le.
Got scolded by mommy lo.
She says i very weak.
She dk wat la.
Says wat normally parents say when children fall sick.
Okies, ..
I'm NOT admiting i'm a baby.
Well, ..
every1 aso says i'm 1.
Wat dhe heck lorrs.
Haix.

Gng no voice liao.
So sick.
Hahas.
De song 'so sick' is nice too.
Hahas. :D
So no link de worrs.
So hungry.
Wan to go eat le.
I noe.
I noe.
FINALLY rite? :D
Hahas.
okies.
byes. :D

& got to find it.
No matter whr it is.
Or is it once lost?
Could't be found back?
Try. ...

Saddened. D:

{❤ dumbdumb}

Saturday, June 6 || 15:36

I'm back.

muhahahaha. :D

Let me tell yooe wat i did for dhe past 3 days.

1st day ( 3rd june) :

Went to seletar airport to take small plane to laguna redang.

Alighted frm dhe plane.

Sat for 1hr + on dhe plane.

So tiring.

Had to take a bus to dhe jetty.

Took a speed boat to dhe island.

Went to dhe hotel to check in.
Ate lunch.

Went to dhe beach.

Dhe water thr is soooooooo clear blue.

Swam thr.

Got cut by corals.

Was bleeding lo.

Kenny got cut too.

Went back hotel to bath & clean up.

Ate dinner.

Went looked for blue sands.

Soooooo coool sia.

yooe are supposed to rub dhe sands gently.

If lucky,

will see a very bright blue sand.

They say actually is an insect.

idk but it was very cool. :D

Went to pub.

Went clubbing.

So shiok.

Danced & danced.

Hahas.

Went to dig for blue sands agn.

Went back to hotel at 1130pm +.

Actuaaly wanted to watch sun rise wif cousin at 5am.

But tooooo tired.

So couldn't wake up.

2nd day (4th june) :

Ate brkfast.

Went snorkeling.

Ate lunch.

Went snorkeling agn.

It was so fun.

Can see soooo many types of fishes swimming along yooe.

Wat a blast! :D

My uncle caught a very very big clam.

Woooow~

But cnt brg back cause will fine money or get jailed.

hahas.

Went back to hotel.

Bathed & ate cup noodles. :D

Went to slp for a while.

OKies, for a looong while. :D

Went for dinner.

Didn't eat mush lo.

Dhun feel lyk eating.

Went to souvenirs' shop.

Bought a nice keychain & some food and drks.

Went back to hotel & slp.

3rd day (5th june) :

Went to dhe beach early in dhe mrng.

For a walk.

After tat,

went for brkfast.

didn't eat.

Actually got diving de.

But didn't went for it.

Instead,

stayed at hotel to slp agn.

Piggy horrs. :/

Ate lunch.

Actually i didn't eat much larrs.

Went to dhe beach,

wrote words on dhe sands.

while mummy & bro went swimming in dhe sea.

Bro's hp got soaked wif seawater & sands.

Saddened.

But luckily,

Still got warranty.

hahahas.

Went for snorkeling agn.

Hand got kissed by dhe fishes.

Cause i fed them bread then all come kissing me.

Hahas.

Went back to hotel instead of gng see baby sharks.

hahas.

Missed it. D:

Ate dinner.

Went to shop shop wif mummy while bro stayed at dhe hotel.

Bought a bracelet. :D

went back to hotel while my cousins went clubbing.. agn.

Slept.

4th day ( 6th june) :

Ate brkfast.

I didn't even eat lo.

Was so sick.

Starting to have fever agn. D:

Chacked out dhe hotel.

Board dhe speed boat & dhe bus.

To go to dhe malaysia airport.

After an hr + on dhe plane.

Finally rch SINGAPORE!!

woooots~

hahas.

So happy to be back hm.

Msg hym immediately.

But hp was spammed by hym.

Everyday msg me sia.

Hahas. :D

Must take temp.

Die ...

I drank alot of water 1st.

Dhen take.

OKies, it was fine. :D

Took a taxi hm.

But i have to buy lunch for me, my bro & ah ma.

Haix.

Was so tired lo.

So sick too.

Went hm le dhen juz lay on dhe bed.

Slept.

So now blogging lorrs. :D

{❤ dumbdumb}

Monday, June 1 || 17:32

idk.
Rly dk wat to do.
It was a great day.
But ..
Looked.
Glazed.
In a mess now.
Confusing myself all tis tym?
Am i?
I rly dk wat to do lerrs.
My mind is lyk in a mess now.
Why am i in tis mess?
Didn't knew wat was rite.
Didn't knew wat was wrong.
Juz did nth.
Felt so useless.
Juz leave me alone?
Dhun wan to drag yooe down.
Confused.
Haix.
No longer noe wat to do.
For once,
Trust was given.
But dk wat choice to take.

Yooe did so much.
I noe.
Others told me too.
But,
I felt so wrong.
Didn't noe which steps to take,
& which not to take.
Cuz every steps matter.
As with every step yooe take,
Yooe might end up falling down.
If yooe didn't step firmly,
yooe fall hard down on dhe ground, hard.
Juz lyk me.
Feeling never able to be able to stand,
because of tis fall.
I didn't trust myself then.
Hiding myself frm everyone,
even myself.
... Was it cause i was tooo selfish?
To everyone?
Tink so .. ..

Felt so horrible abt myself.
Why is tis happening to me?
idk anyting.
dk tis, dk tat.
Hiax.
Gng overseas soon.
Will it helps?
Leaving singapore,
& everyting else here for tat period of tym?

Took report book liao.
On 2905.
Finally went back sckol le.
Waaa~
Soooo many ppl missed me ar? :D
LOLS.
Hahas.
Paid back dhe buenos' debt tat i owned G le.
Waaaaaaa~
Finally finish own-ing her buenos liao.
I own her 5 sia.
Wat dhe heck rite?
I aso dk why frm 3 buenos.
Why own until 5?!?
But nvm la.
Gave her back lerrs.
Own her nth le ar. :D
But noe she own me le worrs.
MUHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Evil~
hahas.
B.O.R.E.D.

Feeling so terrible now.
Gng to be overseas in 2 mre days.
Tmr is dhe maths trail.
Will be gng to clarke quay.
Agn.
To dhe singapore river thr.
Dk play wat game larrs.
Sian.
Dk wan to buy dhe wallet tmr ma.
idk larrs.
Wanted dhe earpiece.
But dhun have le.
Actually wan to buy it before i go overseas de,
but no mre le.
As it was once said,
Once lost,
foever gone.
I lost dhe chance to get hold of it.
It was too late.
Even though it's juz an earpiece,
it is dhe same for everyting else too.
Cherish those.

I'm juz a girl with a broken smile.

Nobody knows why i crys,

or even knows how i has those scars.

{❤ dumbdumb}