▼ Ironically ▲

“When you love someone, you just do. There are no maybes, no buts, and no whys.”

Monday, August 31 || 18:08

Got normal lessons today till 1130am.

Actually we 1010 can have recess le,

but our sacastic mdm tan 1040 dhen let us go.

But when we go down,

no people de.

Which is gooood.

Dhen buy food dhun need quenue long long. :B

Lazyy hor? :p

hahas.

Went for th celebration.

SO boring lorrs.

Lols.

Zul so coool sia.

Spin de FAKE gun with lights de.

Sooo nice lo.

hahas.

Dhen th IRRITATING jack kept stepping on my skirt.

Freak hym la.

irritating lorrs.

Lols.

After that,

idk want to go back to rosyth ma leh.

Cause i also got ss remedial.

Dhen when i FINALLY decided to go back &.

I have to rush hm cause scared they will close le.

Wth, then after rushing okies le.

CLOSE LIAO!?!

Then just have to down down and talk with old classmates lo.

Only got ard 10 people go nia.

Wat th heck lo.

Lols.

Only me, cherie, jetaime, lousia, jing wen, cheryl chia, jeremy loh, don koh & brenda.

then end up only jeremy, don, lousia & jetaime went to amkhub to watch movie.

Th rest of us went home. :D

meeeee wants to watch G-force! :B

~~sryi didn;tnoeicouldn'tgobacktofindyooe.~~

~~Guessijustgaveapromise,~~

~~thatican'tseemstofufilba.~~

~~althoughyooedidnotsayanytingabtit.~~

~~Butsomehowicanfeelit.~~

~~thatlettingmegowasunbearing.~~

~~ihadgonetoofartoletgonow.~~

~~everytimeihadtogosomewhrelse,~~

~~butknowwillleaveyooealonewithurfrens,~~

~~ialwaysfeelsodamnfreakingguilty.~~

~~isometimedidn'twanttogotoo.~~

~~butjusthadtocauseitisararechance.~~

~~iamsorry.~~

Sunday, August 30 || 20:44

dk wat's wrong with meee's family these few days.

Now seems okies,

but ltr maybe might qurallels agn.

Just like me,

i & mommy just quralled.

But now seems okies le.

hahas.

Just dhun tink tooo much ba. :D

I had alr post th LOCD pics le.

The 2 small kiddos cute rite?!? :B

hahas.

ADORABLE lo.

The girl name is TAN JIA ZHEN.

We two are th ZHEN'S family.

wakakakas. :B

hahas.

The boy very cuteee lo.

Look lyk chin din.

hahas, seriously.

DO i look lyk i'm one of them meh?

People kept saying i do.

LOls. :B

When i carrying th newspapers to stack up properly.

Mr teo saw & told me to be careful.

I asked why leh?

He says scared i'll be lost among th piles of newspapers.

I was like ._.

hahas.

He says i stand in th middle of th newspapers,

is cnt see me de.

LOls.

NO lo.

Meee is big-sized & visible! :B

Friday, August 28 || 21:34

sian diao.

Got error dk why so cnt upload th pics.

Saddened. :D

Today is LOCD.

We went ard collecting newspapers.

& th best part is,

th kiddos from xinghua pri sckol.

Allll so cuteee.

My kiddo i in charge of de,

her name is TAN JIA ZHEN.

hahas.

But mee's surname not TAN larrs.

hahaas.

Edmund keeps saying i like them de.

Kiddos and small sized!

No lo.

lols.

Hahas.

But we all like their mommy lo.

They so cuteeee.

OMG! :B

Sunday, August 23 || 20:28

Went for tution as usual.

Woke up late today.

So quickly washed up le,

go out eat brkfast.

But seems to be early afterall.

Lols.

Got a small quiz during tution.

Gng to flunk too.

Haix.

Such a failure in every aspects.

In th 1st place,

right at th beginning,

I thought everything just seems to be wrong.

All th qurallels and others,

just don't seems to fit in.

Right at th begining,

i thought th reasons why why why we ended like that in th past.

About a year ago,

everything seems to be wrong.

Qurallels, and crying in th dark.

That was a dark period,

for both.

But now,

it seems to be over now.

Really didn't expects us to be able to walk so far now.

All just seems like an illusions.

It seems so true,

that i hope time would just stop at every moments spent together.

I really hope we would not return to th past.

Where hatred,

qurallels,

crying,

avoiding each other,

behaving like each other does not exist,

wearing a mask everyday infront of frens,

pretending to be alright when i'm not

and,

when yooe are no longer a part of meee,

feeds on our weakness day by day.

Making us weaker & weaker towards each other.

Others, even ourselves,

tends to consider giving up that instant.

But,

today had proven ourselves wrong,

Love is sth that yooe needs in order to live on.

Yooe'll always needs that someone to be thr every seconds, every minutes, every moment.

& i am glad we had walked so far.

Do yooe know,

yooe are always tinking meee infront of urself.

and, that's what makes yooe great & silly though.

hahas.

Perhaps i know out thr,

another person will be more suitable then me for yooe.

I knew how worthful i am.

And, it's not great.

.. Just perhaps not enough barrs.

hahas.

.. Anyway,

thks for being thr for me everytime, w/o fail. :D

In th past,

I didn't knew how to love or impt it is.

Comparing th past me, & now,

I seems to change alot,

i th sense of tinking.

I didn't tink th importance of it in th past,

i only took it for granted.

and, placed yooe th same as my frens.

I am sorry,

i didn't knew it hurts so much much to know th true.

Maybe that's just th ransom and th price that are meant to be paid for th truth to be known.

For th past 15 months,

I seems to have grown up.

In th pain, happiness given.

But mostly,

happiness are th one flowing through mee. :D

Although i am still like small small kid & IMMATURE,

I seems to cherish this more than th past.

Soon, i'll believe to rely much on yooe too.

Till then,

dhun yooe try to run away. :B

Saturday, August 22 || 16:46

Had trng ytd.

Due to th heavily wind & rain.

We moved to th indoor bb court upstairs.

One with lots of fans.

So nice.

Wish can train thr everytime.

hahas.

Slightly sprained my left ankle.

Pain :B

Got bang bang by joyce during th freindly match.

hahas.

I'm alright :D

She cute la.

hahas.

It was a funnn trng.

love it.

After th trng,

we must mop th floor.

Wat th heck. :D

PLayed bb for awhile,

before heading hm.

Dhen that's when th qurallels started. D;

didn't knew i was so fragile.

hahas.

I thought i was strong.

& could protect myself.

hahas.

Now it proved that, that's not true. :D

okies, i admit it.

Although sometimes,

i'm a little blurr blurr,

dk wat i ownself am doing,

quite dumb,

tends to cry over silly tings easily,

has a unqiue voice and

always tends to be strong,

OVERALL,

I'm fine. :B

yayy.

hahas.

I'm sorry for neglecting yooe for wat yooe had done for me.

Tinking & taking it for granted.

That yooe will never leaves me,

so i just anyhow abused it.

Guess i was wrong,

like always. :B

didn't expect it to be so weak.

So little trust in it.

i rly didn't know,

till yesterday.

I found out that,

i am ever so useless.

Without me,

It's okies.

yar,

i know.

i didn't did much for this ting.

Nth at all.

It was just yooe, yooe & yooe.

Even a robot can't do it so perfect.

Needless to say,

for a weak boyy like yooe.

Wat was i tinking?

wat was i expecting?

No1's perfect.

I knew i couldn't fit in.

Seems true after being proven ytd.

I won't be recognise to be perfect in anybody's eyes.

As, if i am,

thr'll be no one living in this world trying to strive to th highest point.

I rly rly tried so hard.

Adapting to i, yooe & everyting.

I may seems like doing nth.

But i am just overcoming myself from th past.

As th saying goes,

the harder yooe hope for sth.

th harder yooe will fall.

I didn't expect myself to be perfect for myself to settle down for yooe.

I tried real hard to accept th part,

mee fitting into yooe & becoming a part of yooe.

Past those times,

i felt that all those was true.

But eventually,

qurallels started.

& i am th cause for it.

Yar, i know.

I'm stubborn.

& yooe are always th ONE giving in to me.

But i didn't do th same for me.

That's wat it's all about.

Giving in.

I thought this time,

yooe rly meant wat yooe said,

and, i cried hard.

Everyting in life.

We have to accept it as wat it is.

If it's yours,

it's yours.

If it's not,

no matter how much yooe struggle to keep it,

eventually,

yooe will lose it.

Tat's what i'm afraid of.

Friday, August 21 || 09:29

So cold now lo.

Now at com lap.

Suppose to do th chinese thingy de.

But all slacking now.

wakakaks.

Now shihoe's face funnny de.

Giving meee th retarded face :D

hahas.

heyy wat? :x

off to play games le.

will blog ltr. :D

Thursday, August 20 || 20:19

i feel so lalas~

hahas.

Someone's being retarded lorrs.

Posting blog le ._.

Lols.

Finally lorrs :D

We got hip-hop today.

So funnnn la :D

hahas.

i keeps jump here, jump there.

jump jump everywhr :D

today got th oral ... agn ._.

but is only th conversation part.

Retarded lorrs :D

hahas.

I was sooooo damn nervous la.

didn't know wat to say at 1st.

Kept hesitating :D

Sunday, August 16 || 16:47

Went for tution as usual.

So boring.

I got up super duper early today lorrs.

Thought gng out early,

but in th end,

never.

Irritated -.-

He went fishing early in th mrng.

With frens.

Haix.

Felt so ...

But cnt help it.

He got his own tings to do,

so do i.

Th whole world doesn't wait for us.

Only we wait for it to come.

hahas.

idk wat talking mee too. :D

Felt so irritated lorrs.

Was searching for blogskins th whole day.

& couldn't find one that i like.

Retarded ._.

~~No time will wait for us.~~

~~Life still have to go on.~~

~~no matter what.~~

~~learn to be strong.~~

Friday, August 14 || 20:25

Got trng today.

But start at 130 or 145 huh?

Forget le.

hahas.

F. lo :D

jking larrs.

hahas.

Trmg was very very funnn :D

ct & ps cam to join.

waaa~

looooove it lo.

So long nv train with them le.

I miss training together with them lorrs. :D

hahas.

loooove themmm.

Know nxt week th common tests lerrs

ALOT leh.

hahas

got ss, geo, e maths, etc.

walao larrrs.

So stress.

Still got so many homework for thid weekend.

Cnt slack liao lorrrs. D;

hahas.

He had a maths test today.

I saved hym from 2 maeks lo.

Cause need curve ruler.

Dhen is I lent hym de.

wakakakas. :D

Nxt week is common test le.

Work hard everyone. :D

imy.
althoughtodaywasmyfault,
iknow.
shouldn'tcompare.
youisyou.
meisme.
iamsry. D;

Thursday, August 13 || 20:36

didn't knew why i felt that way too.

Haix.

It just naturely came to me,

and i felt it.

didn't knew why it came to meee so sudddennn.

But i didn't gave a damn abt it.

hahas.

didn't bother.

hahas.

so tired today.

G came back lerrs.

woots! :D

Sure miss her lots.

But she bias lorrs. :D

hahas.

Got back th 1st e maths test today

Got 24/30.

Was quite shocked.

Others thought i cheated.

When i heard it,

i felt a moment of bitterness inside meee.

Likr wanting to cry out loud.

of course i didn't.

i knew i was stupid all along.

So it was okies.

Although it was only a joke.

but it hurts.

Even though when yooe said sth that yooe tink might not hurt th person,

actually it does.

Just that he/she is trying to hide it.

and do not try to show it out.

Same goes for everyting.

Guess it had been an lesson for me, myself too.

~~althoughidkwhyifeltthatway,~~

~~butitwasaverystrongfeeling.~~

~~asenseoffearinsideofme,~~

~~thatoneday,~~

~~yooewillleavemeaswell.~~

Wednesday, August 12 || 18:41

yoyoyos.

it had been loooong since i last post.

Was busyy studying for tests.

Tmr still got ss.

Wth ._.

We had a team outing on fri.

Was sooooo funnn.

hahas.

Went to kBox lo.
Were being crazyy thr.
jumping, singing, & blahh blahh blahh. :D
Took lots pictures toooooos.

Went to malacca for 2 D & 1 N.
Went on 9 & 1o of august.
Just came back.
Daddy drove th whole family thr.
Cousins went too.
Hahas.
Was funnn.
Except for being stuck on th car for ard 3 hrs plus & so tiring.
Others was fine.
Took lots of pictures.
Will post them soonnn.
Lazyy to post now.

Today idk why.

Felt so tired lo.

In class also.

Hiax.

He went for oral today.

Well ,

best of luck. :D

Sian fri th trng is early de.

& is for 4 hrs sia.

Wat th heck ._.

Did a quiz & found out that my biggest weakness is JEALOUSY. :D
You envy others, but you are also confident about yourself.
But sometimes you wish you could be confident about yourself without the masks.

You clean before people come over, even though you are typically a mess.

You dress up or wear revealing clothes, show off your tan, tattoos, and body,

because you feel like it will get attention and make you feel worth something.

Sexiness is something you value,

but you really want to be admired for your heart.

You want someone to see through the masks and love you for you,

but you sometimes don't know who that person is

and you fear opening up to someone because you don't want to be hurt.

You wish you could be like someone else,

trade places just for a day, to see what it's like to be perfect.

You like lists and getting things done, but you rarely finish them.

You want to be loved, so badly, for who you are and you're just waiting for the right person to show you that it's okay to rest in who you were made to be,

and not who you are always trying to be.

❤{ Felt ever so ------- }

~~didn'tknewhowuselessiwas,~~

~~tillyoumentionedabtit.~~

~~Feltsouselessandgoodfornth.~~

~~yaryar.~~

~~iknowyoudhunexpectanyting,~~

~~butifeltuselessthatidon'tdoanytingonurspecialday.~~

~~Evenotherpeopledoso,~~

~~butyoudunlet.~~

~~iamuseless.~~

Thursday, August 6 || 21:13

Today was sooo tiring too.

G gone to bangkok liao.

Nxt thurs dhen coming back.

Haix.

People start to tell me miss her liao.

SO fast?! :D

hahas.

Hip-hop was funnnnnnn.

Mdm wong dances rly well.

wow! ~

i'm impressed :D

seriously,

G & joanne danced rly well.

Maybe cuz both also dances de.

Hahas.

Tmr must wear red wif white skirt to sckol.

Lols. :D

I wearing th newbie red shirt.

damnnnn cuteeee :D

wakakakas. :/

Gng out with seniors tmr.

I'm everyone,

idk how to sing so now all couldn't go to kbox le.

i'm sry.

Felt so odd.

hahas.

Tmr only brg hp, wallet, mp3 & 4 phyics ws to sckol nia.

Phsyics ws are to be handed in tmr ma.

Maths, ..

nxt tues barrs.

Too much for meeee littlee brainn :D

❤{ Meeee not meee todayy}

~~didn;tknewhowiwasratedatfirst.~~

~~tillnow.~~

~~idkhowtoaskyooebut,~~

~~watisthdiiferentme.~~

~~betweennowmeandwhenyooefirstmetdeme?~~

~~ichangedalotallofasudden.~~

Wednesday, August 5 || 20:32

Today got A maths test.

OKies la,

just dk will pass of fail. :D

Dearest mommy finally let me go on fri le.

But must try try earlier go hm.

yayy. :D

G didn't cme sckol todayy.

Was sick.

Haix.

Didn't have muchh funn w/o her.

hahas.

But nvm people of th earth,

still got meeeee. :D

wakakakakas. :/

Hope she will come sckol tmr.

Cuz she is flying to bangkok to BANG BANG tmr nite.

❤{ Still th same?}

~~Whenoureyesmet,~~

~~nthweresaidordone.~~

~~we'reinastateofnoreturn?~~

~~nthweresaid.~~

~~tookmelotsofcouragetostepthfirststep,~~

~~butdidn'ttookanyefforttostopmyselffromcrying.~~

~~wassoterrible.~~

~~butnowthisisit,~~

~~itismyfault.~~

~~perhapiamsorry. :x~~

Saturday, August 1 || 16:51

Why so many people is getting sick nowadays?

omg.

H1N1 so scary.

PLease,

everyone pls drk mre water & tc urself.

Meeeee so bored today lo.

Wanted to go out.

bit dk go whr.

So stayed at hm.

Done some of my hw,

not yet completed tmr hw though.

Ltr dhen do barrs.

He fell sick.

idk serious ma.

Hope he'll get well soonnnn.

❤{ Can't seems to understand everyting.}

~~hopeyouwillgetwellsoon,~~

~~tcyourselfba.~~

~~althoughican'tdomuch,~~

~~justhopeyouwillbeoksoon.~~

~~it'snotthsameanymre.~~